hey ho whoever's there.

home has been a fucking piece of stupid worthless shit. and i am angry, and i am sad. mostly fucking pissed. with the lady, with the man, with what he's doing, and what she's doing, and most of all, with what i feel. and i feel like screaming, partly to make someone see just how fucking ridiculous this whole thing is and partly because things will never be the same. we cant go back, and you refuse to face reality and go forward. and so we're stuck. i kick myself in the gut because i have so fucking much to say to you. but just like him, i'm much too tired to entertain you and your 46yearold tantrums. and i feel empty because you hate me for how i am yet you dont even know who i am. but we are blood and i wish you happiness. i just hopepraywish you realise what you have done.

i've been away from home for the past week, and life's been .. well, pretty much peacefully sweet.

i'm turning 20 and i'm still all angsty and hateful.
this is so not what i envisioned for myself.


Goodfuckingbye 2006.