love is like war

2011-03-12T07:22:00.003+08:00

Empty hearts, careless minds

2009-09-22T23:02:00.000+08:00

Well what d'ya know? My hp has a blogger application. Hur

I feel bad. Came home and slept abit when i was supposed to go fetch dad from work. So mum called dad (think she was lazy to go also) and asked if he could take bus. And i feel bad cause i know how long the journey from his workplace is. and well, im sure i'm not the only tired working adult. =/

Migraine is killing me. I don't know what i'd do without chemicals that numbs the brain. Hur work was manageable. Manythanks to dear jessie who managed to clear the naction before i came in for aft shift. Superwoman, she is.

Ahh i want hug.
Must be the time of the month soon.

White sparrows

2009-08-03T15:59:00.010+08:00

2 weeks till results.
Fucking scared.

Go on, crush me like a flower

2009-07-30T14:33:00.014+08:00

They just realeased Billy Talent III! =))

Benjamin Kowalewicz. Yummy~
From what i've gathered, he's vegan, loves animals, has dimples, no formal education, plays the drums, writes insane songs, has a weird voice and is soooo down-to-earth sweeet!!

HOW NOT TO LIKE?! He's so damnfucking hot.

You are not alone.

2009-07-08T20:52:00.003+08:00

ahhh i'm so tired
and so bloody broke

i almost died at work from exhaustion

now i'm hungry, but aunt cooked asam pedas! booooo.
gonna make myself spaghetti later.
but lazy balls
mother used the vegetables and chicken and corn that i bought
so i can either eat soup-spaghettin or spaghetti, then soup.

ahh thinking out .. uh in words.

Meeting old friends tomorrow! broke! haahahaha
Can't wait for this weekend, for more reasons than one.

Tata!

Shall eat while mouring for MJ.

Breathing fire

2009-06-26T11:54:00.009+08:00

Woooooooosh.

3 days of body temperature of up to 39.8 degrees celcius. I thought it would never go down. Especially the second day. I'd call mother in my sore husky voice whining to her about how the temp's not going down.

Every few hours mother or father will call to ask me to check my temp or eat medicine. Or father's hand will be on my forehead, or he'd call and ask my mum to take me to the docs again (ma took off on the 3rd day. no point la, cos she'd heat up the porridge, then forget to turn off the flames, so it dries up. haha) I hardly ate anything the past three days cause i was sleeping all the time. My face now looks like it's been sunburnt. Skin peeling on my cheeks, nose.. lips. Urgh

All the plans i had to put off because of this. URGGH
And i felt so bad cause they were short of staff at work, esp on my 2nd day of fever.

Now, i've only got the cough and sore throat.
Work tomorrow.

I don't feel like going anywhere though. bah

*edited --------------------------

okay so it ended up being 5 days of fever. mother brought me to TTSH, on the 5th day. =/

oh, and 2 days stomach flu.
I puked and puked till there was nothing left to puke, but still continued to cough out bile. mum had to literally ordered the lousy doc to jab me on my ass at 2 in the morning.

she called up the boyfriend the next day and asked him if he could come over to make sure i ate food and medicine (cause i was damn weak.. and stubborn heh & noone was at home). So he came over, cooked porridge, ate together, then i slept and he left for school =)

Try turning around

2009-06-13T00:18:00.009+08:00

There's too little timee.. toooooo littleee time!!
Even during the holidays, there's too little time. wthwth :(
I'm sleepy, but as dumb as it sounds, i don't wanna waste my time sleeping. But i need sleep or else i'll look like a zombie at work tomorrow. blabberballs.

So this month's gonna be difficult. We've used up boyfriend's last NS pay, and my miserable half a month's pay is in AND it's the GS~~fuckin'~~S. (Promised boyfriend i'd stop cussing) So how now brown cow?!! So far, we've/ I've spent waay more than i've allocated myself to spend. I'm screwed! I hate being such a .. calculator. Every bloody thing i calculate how much i have left, and i'd take like 12 hours to decide if i should buy something or go somewhere. Annoying.

I'm so enjoying the phone. You have no idea how cool it is to flip the phone and start "typing" out my sms. Lotsa spelling errors, no doubt, but supercool!

I still want my digimon.

I need to go change batteries for my watches. All my watches are dead. Cept for kal's trusty babyG. hahahaa Damn cute. I really like that one. My kinda watch. But i still need to change the other batteries la.

I needa go library for random alone reading time, shit i need to finish reading my last bookkk!!

OHHhh celebrated belated birthday last saturday with the girls. Very.. funny outing, and awesome awesome surprises! wooot woooot~! Caught me offguard, and was so totally distracted. But lovelove! Maybe upload pictures someday..

but for now,
sleep, and kundera beckons.

I'm so damn glad the exams are over.

In my new skin

2009-06-03T23:29:00.005+08:00

ahhhh i'm still pining over my lost babyipod. =(
When i get my pay, I'm gonna get another one. haahahaha Funny sia lyz. So rich uh.. or should i downgrade? to 30gb? I mean, it's good enough right? and it's way cheaper.

Consolations.
Me and electronics just don't .. click. haha get it!?

I insanely despise idiots who stand right in front of the mrt/lrt doors. I especially despise those that are bigger-sized. like fuck man! Look at yourself!! Noone can get past you! Not in, not out damnit. Just now there was one Fbigggg lady standing like in the middle of the door, and she wasn't even going in! The least she could do was move to the side! BUT NOOOOO. she just stood there.. while people tried to get in and out. WTF is wrong with these people??!! SHE WASN'T EVEN GONNA TAKE THAT LRT FOR GOODNESS SAKE! I felt like slapping her i SWEAR. It took all of my energy not to shout at her. I stared at her the whole train ride. I may look skinny, but I'm terribly fierce when you piss me off la. So damn annoying, these shitty inconsiderate degenerates.

FREEEEEEEEDOM!!

2009-05-16T17:25:00.005+08:00

Am quite sad though. the papers were insanely tough, esp econs.
I wanted to cry during the paper. =(

After that fetched mum, drove to dad's office, fetched him, and they dropped me off at causeway. Waited for boyfriend. And we drove to town, for LEFT FOR DEADDDDDDDD! What else!! Came home at 2am and slept through the day! So.. weird not having to wake up early to study.

But my head hurts and my neck's stiff, and i have no idea if i still have a job. Balls.

Zoo tomorrow??

_|_

2009-05-13T10:37:00.012+08:00

Commitments suck

Live like you're dying

2009-05-11T19:51:00.009+08:00

Hope for the hopeless

2009-05-08T14:59:00.009+08:00

It hasn't been going well for me, this exams.

This morning, i got locked in my room.

FROM INSIDE MY ROOM. wtf right?!

The last I remember, dad opened the door to take the keys, then came back in to put it on my table & pulled the door shut. Next morning, woke up LATE with a horrible migraine, and the door is locked. You can turn the door knob, but it's still locked.

THANK GOD my handphone was with me okay. Imagine if it was outside or smth. I'd have to shout for my mum to wake up. Anyway, called her to help but she couldn't open from outside either, so she woke my sis to break the door knob. At least she's useful for one thing,
breaking in. Hur

So i'm down with fever now, and the worst is yet to come.

Another eternity

2009-05-07T15:40:00.005+08:00

Nothing spells grown-up more than driving to singapore expo for your first university exam paper.

But parking was a fucking bomb la nabeycheebai

and i don't know what kind of shitass invigilators UOL hired, but they sure as hell sucked major crap. What bullshit.. trying to filter 1000plus (i think?) people in through a tiny, 2 in a row at one time, room. AND they only open the doors at 9 fucking 30! Paper was at 10am. Plus the tables weren't in order of the student code that we were given. We had to check for our seat numbers outside where they posted only at ONE location. AND they only told us to check our seat numbers once we passed through the tiny room, down the stairs, and into the hall.
STUPID la seriously

Started almost one hour late.
All of use perspiring and exhausted from shoving people before our 3hr papers started.

Bloody hell.
Take almost 2 hour, and many buses OR
pay $11 freakin bucks for convinience?!

How did you sleep?

2009-05-05T15:11:00.005+08:00

I had a meltdown yesterday.
Like every other exams i had, i sat on my desk,
in front of all my timetables & goals & to do lists and cried my eyes out,
while texting boyfriend to whine.
and my darling asthma decided to make an appearance at night.

Pimple breakout, itchy rashes all over my body,
head feels heavy, body aching, throat burning up.

SUCKSASS.

But I am looking forward to end of exams.
Back to books.

omg father called, asked what i was doing so i said "studying"
then he told me to help dig the acoustic from under my bed and fix the guitar strings.
ahahahahaaa

Forever & always

2009-05-01T23:56:00.007+08:00

We were sitting in the car awhile
talking & joking around under my block as usual before i left

and we hugged

and he said

"I love you. I can't imagine life without you" =)))))

I was so shy i wriggled about and acted like it's so cheesy & disgusting.

When he left, I texted him

"Msg me when you get home ok. I can't imagine life without you either, btw.
I was too shy to say."

and he replied

"I know."

=)) I fell in love again.
He says the sweetest things when he's tired. haha!

Love is a riddle

2009-04-30T14:34:00.006+08:00

Multiply notification:

Howdie.

i was checkin' around this site, & I noticed your lil' site. U seem to be a rather cool dude, but I'm pretty new at how things work here, & don't know my way around here. Don't they have some sort of chat thing here? Well, I hate writing msgs to ppl, & maybe never receiving an answer. Anyways, if u wanna chattin' with me, u can catch me over @ date-club.org?id=2531

So, ya, hope to see you. I'm always looking to find more people.

wahlao seriously? hahaha stupid or what. Just because boyfriend uploaded his picture as the profile pic on my our multiply. It's prolly one of those dating advert shits but damn! The girl is hot la. But only one picture of her. These websites are getting sneakier man..

So if anyone who happens to be reading this, feel free to go do date-club.org yeah?
hahahahahahaha

I'm gonna skip along

2009-04-30T05:11:00.009+08:00

Break from study.
Tired. Sleepy. Hungry!

Gotta drag my ass to library tmr or else i'll never study in the morning.
I'm sucha night person la. Wish nights were longer. hah don't we all!?

I keep getting stuck doing nothing in the afternoon cause of the bloody cartoons! and i don't even have cable okay. I'm damn pathetic. Ben 10, Legion of superheroes, Xmen coming soon, Spiderman. And the food shows in the morning! omg it seems so dumb, but i get hooked watching all the foodies.

Fat girl trapped in skinny girl's body.

I have this heavy feeling (cliche.. but) in my heart.
I can't put a finger on what it might be about though.
I hope everything'll be ok. It's prolly just the hormones la

Okay gotta lie my ass in bed and pretend to sleep so mother won't naaaaaag.
My mother nags when i study late.
I never study, she nag.
I study, she nag.

SIIGGGGH ~

Goodbye apathy

2009-04-30T00:10:00.013+08:00

it's exactly 7 days to exams,
15 to happy days!

I suddenly miss boyfriend.
Is it too late for me to think up of a nickname for him other than Oii or Eh or Psstt?!

Meeting sch girls on friday to figure out how to get there & check out the exam hall.
Gotta gauge the temperature of the hall so i can decide on which jacket to bring.
wahlao i'm so lame la

I'm supposed to wake boyfriend up at 2am to watch his soccer game, but knowing him.. haha

ahh i can't stand to think that i'm turning 22 soon. Age is but a number. Age is but a number. Age is but a number. Only a freakin number. and i'm sad cause i thought i'd have accomplished so much more. Done more, seen more, you know? So naive, little lyzzie.

Life readjustments around the corner. Worried.
Back to books.

Why so serious?

2009-04-28T03:28:00.012+08:00

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCCCCCCCCCK!!

I'm a bloody hypocritical procrastinator la. I bloody procrastinate, then when i get my lazy ass off to finally do smth, i turn around and do smth else. THEN i complain about not getting it done.
nyeeeeeh.. Slap me slap meee with a trout (or smth. think IRC heh)

haaaahaha i'm feeling so damn guilty for counting down to wolverine instead of exams
FUCCCCCK

I think i've been watching too many love stories. (i know right! study man!)
I want to fall in love again. Not with someone else laaa.. But like the whole process you know? Minus the drama, of course. The butterflies, the courting, the twirling and shit. Do i make any sense?

Baa baa black sheep.
I shall appease myself with pictures of hot people.

Gotta go back to study.
Night² you exam-less people.

Save me

2009-04-25T01:55:00.005+08:00

I was washing my face, when suddenly i felt the need to blow my nose.
Lo and behold, i snorted blood all over my hands.

my nose has been bleeding quite alot lately.
I don't remember being so succeptible to nose bleeds.
I remember one nose bleed back when i was 12 maybe, but thats cause i had high fever. & it bled once only. I don't remember any before that.

annnnnd it feels like there's eyelash in my right eye, but there's nothing!
everytime i blink, i get the uncomfy feeling.. then i rub my eyes in an attempt to get rid of smth that isn't even there in the first place! damnit!

and i postponed my wisdom tooth extraction.

I'm a basketcase of germs.

.. i'm sleepy. =(

Blast from the past

2009-04-24T12:00:00.007+08:00

Today,
i woke up at 8.00 am.
on the 1st of January, 2000.

Handphone's all screwy..
Loverly.

Happy 63 monthsary!
as of today, i mean.

Spill our regrets

2009-04-22T21:42:00.017+08:00

lookiee what i found!

i think i look like a boy la & a damn weirdo!
oh well.

last saturday, i asked mother, "ma how much are they selling bkk flight tickets for?" since she was on jetstar's webpage.

and she replied, "you pass your exams, i sponsor your ticket.."

0_O hahhahahaha!! hohoho hahaha!

but i couldn't (still can't) gauge how serious she was about it, since she's making us go to jakarta with her after my exams. initially insisted i come with them 2 days before my papers. nyeeh! I'm making boyfriend save up too so we can go together! we've been a couple for 5yrs 3months (wowaahaha!) & we've never gone out of the country together. EVER. So depressing.

I'm off to get my As!! (or Bs? at least..)

For a paper doll

2009-04-18T18:00:00.003+08:00

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.

Within this past month or so, I've..

Bitten repeatedly on several areas in my mouth & on my tongue
Hit my knee against my bed
Hit my head against the cupboard in the kitchen
Sliced off my flesh on my third finger with a razor
Burnt my cheek with the flat iron
Bruised my thumb from pressing the flush too hard
Fell off the bed
Fell off the couch.. and now to add to my collection,
Burnt my right thumb on a overheated spoon

PAIN LOR. I was heating up the oil, ran to my room cause hp rang. Then i ran back to the kitchen cause it was smoky, and with my wet hands, so damn smart-ly picked up the silver spoon that i left lying in the overheated pan. I could literally hear the water on my thumb sizzle off from touching the spoon.

I dont know whats wrong with meeee!!
my clumsiness might cause somebody to get hurt reeaaall baaaaad. haha

Paradox of thrift

2009-04-17T02:27:00.003+08:00

Fuck my previous post la.
Oh how i'd kill to get some sleep damnit.

i think i'll go to the library tomorrow. it's too distracting at home.
tv, pc, music, fooooooooood, cats, tv, facebook, damnit.

i dyed my hair burgundy. like my whole head, is burgundy now.
not obvious though, only under sun/light.
it's different, and i like it.. but my hair's so dry now!! i know! like it could get any worse. hur
so regret using garnier.

omg lyz you need to bloody focus! FOCKERRSE!

shit. i need to charge my ipod but i'ma switch off the com cause i wanna hit the books and i'm super sure i'll forget to switch it off later and mother will keeeeeeeel me and make me study in the dark cause i'm wasting electricity but if i dont charge, i'll die in the library tomorrowww.. or at least during the journey.

Wisdom tooth extraction next wednesday! =/
SCARED.

My Favourite Lie

2009-04-13T14:56:00.002+08:00

HELLO.
I slept at 7am.
Woke up at 12pm. BOO!
I hate that groggy feeling you get when you sleep in the AMs and wake up in the PMs.
know what i mean?

Ahhh been blogging alot. But i can't help it! DESTRESS DISTRESS!
i want snacks now. But the shop's so far, and i have $20 left in my bank. I dont think they'll let me withdraw that amount right?

I should go overseas for like a month someday cause everyone seems to come back fatter, especially when they go australia. So one day.. one damn fine day! i will fly away from this damned place! and chill in airconditioned outdoors and eat to my heart's content. Meaning, i'd have to save enough money to buy food there la, or i could crash someone's house. ha ha ha

Tomorow's school, kal took leave, so he's prolly gonna watch me study (again). He followed me to the library yest. at amk! where else!? i'm so damn attached to that library. I've been going to study there since secondary school! in the discman era.

bah sleeepy. i'm gonna go bake potatoes now.

XOXO,
gossip girl

HAHHAHAHAHA no, i dont watch the show. No time!! after exams!

The 3am smell

2009-04-13T03:21:00.004+08:00

It's 3.21am, and i'm wide awake.
Was just thinking to myself this morning how i miss my insomnia. Cause i'd end up reading my textbooks till i fall asleep. Productive, no? HUR i drank tea with 3 bags of uh tea (?) and 5 spoons of sugarrr!

Now, i'm sitting here with the laptop on the floor surrounded by books & earphones blasting.

I'm on my 3rd week of the month. 2 more weeks to stuff my brains! oh joy!

Things to do after exams (HAHA)

MOVIEESSS - fast&furious, 17again, chunli?
L4D L4D L4D
worrrk =(
Sentosa
Zoooo
MY BIRTHDAY! omg so old.

HUARRRRGGH i'm hungry. But lazy to cook..

Mass Hysteria

2009-04-12T14:02:00.003+08:00

I've been studying (most times) for 2 weeks now,
and i feel like i still don't know anything.

Well, apart from ~~macroecons~~ well.. nothing!

Focus!!

POA
Stats
Maths
Banking & Finance
Micro/Macro- Econs

No more playtime for lyz.
Time to boogey to the books

.. nyeh.

Frilly hopes

2009-04-08T23:12:00.003+08:00

I am GOING TO DIE!

My lecturer was talking about fibre during class.
we got all confused, kept flipping through our notes wondering which question he was going through..
till we realised he meant.. "fabric".

........... wtfwtfwtf haha!

In equilibrium

2009-04-05T12:32:00.002+08:00

I swear me & bf MUST NOT go to amk anymore.

He's been accompanying me to study on off days, and within that 2 days we've gone there, we've managed to spend roughly $150 between the 2 of us! YESS i know right. like wtf is there to buy at amk?! hahaha apparently, ALOT.

We both went crazy on stationery ($40 worth to be exact), I made my specs (finally- though abit lousy cause multicoated is too ex for my/kal's/both our budget) , which bf paid for me first, bought a funky wedge-flat shoe and Kal bought a shirt & he wanted to buy me a damn cute small starry bag too, if i didnt insist on not getting it. Will prolly go back another day to get it! =D after my pay? and exams?

Managed 3hours on friday and 4hours yest.
But i'm still not learning fast enough for my liking.

C + S + T = C + I + G + X - M

i'm only at that chpter balls.

Lucy in the sky

2009-03-27T12:02:00.000+08:00

Sore throat, ulcers, gum near wisdom tooth peeling, eyes so puffy it looks like i've been crying throughout the night (i didn't, i swear!), migraine, runny nose. =(

It's been long since I fell sick. But since work started again, health's been getting worse.
Talking bout work, they told me to remove my temp pass, and gave me a badge now! haha
Don't know if it's of any significance, but it's kinda cute. Reminds me of primary & sec school, no?

It's 12pm. I should get ready for work.
My eyes are still puffy though. and it kinda hurts.
like.. heavy. I've tried ice, cucumbers, the cooling pack thingy..
but it still looks awful =(

Oh well.

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note to self:

work on 2nd April
make specs
get car in may

Wonderworld

2009-03-21T18:09:00.001+08:00

I'm in love with her.
She reminds me of an edgy alice in wonderland, no?

Look inside my heart

2009-03-20T18:14:00.002+08:00

I'm so sleepy.

I want to play l4d. I want to complete death toll & harvest! Advanced, of course. ahem =D Have completed dead air many times. AND YOU KNOW WHAT!? everytime i play l4d with bf, and he startles the witch, and i dont kill it fast enough, HE SCOLDS ME LAH. he'll be like "tsk. why so slow!" @$#%!@$% Then when I startle the witch, he'll run away & i'll end up dying. -_-" Same for tank. He'll scold "you cant run and shoot ah!?" but if it's me, he runs away, without shooting btw. Double -_-"

I wanna play l4d.

Been surviving on 4 to 5 hours of sleep everyday since work's started.
And the weather is crazy. AND WTF. I left my ezlink in my other pants. So i had to buy a ticket from the lrt station. BUT THEY DO NOT ACCEPT NOTES. WHO THE HELL CARRIES 3.80 WORTH OF COINS?!! fuck you know. If there were shops downstairs or nearby, then fine la. but it's in the middle of the bloody field! wtfwtf

=( I need l4d to cheer me up.

note to self: MAKE NEW SPECS

Hold your breath & count to ten

2009-03-17T00:14:00.004+08:00

I'm shoving raisins down my throat. Who knew one box of raisins contains 540kj of calories?!
Definitely not me. I'm trying to increase my intake of calories & carbs & proteins.
Bought packets of raisins and granola bars. Still need to buy nutella and/or peanut butter.
Cheeeseeee Pastamaniaaaa Steaaaaakkkk Yummmmyyyyaayyeee

I sliced some of my flesh off my ring finger while looking for my wallet in my bag. Fuck shavers.
Heck don't ask what the shaver was doing in my bag. It's one of my many just-in-case junks i keep everywhere. I was at top kang, and it bled & bled & bled & bled. I got frightened and called bf (so lame right like wth can he do from jurong?) and he tried to calm me. Rinsed it under running water, but was still bleeding. Got weird stares from ppl, so i walked home dripping blood. Father told me to apply pressure, but it stung, so i left it under water. STUNG EVEN WORSE. but it stopped bleeding. Then father helped me to plaster the wound. I found bits of my flesh in the razors. BOO. would show you how it looks like BUT IT HURTS TOO MUCH for me to bother taking a pic of it.

I want to play l4d =( =( =(

Come play with meeeee

OMG HOW TO PLAY L4D WITH MY FINGER LIKE THISS!!

Stuck in repeat

2009-03-13T12:21:00.002+08:00

I threw away a WHOLE bag of MOZARELLA CHEESE yesterday because it got mouldy =( =(
Damn sad that i didn't get to eat it.
Tried to salvage the non-mouldy ones,
but decided against it cause i don't want to upset my darling stomach.

You know, i get pangs of "why-the-hell-did-i-continue-studying!" now & then.
I sometimes forget the reason why I'm in uni.
I should've just continued working. (even though i had lousy paying jobs)
I should've tried being an air-stewardess. (eww, but hey u get to travel & big bucks, no? & i did manage to get all the way through their interviews. means i have what it takes right?)
I should've stuck to CAT and work my way up slowly.
wtf was i thinking? i'm a slow learner. wth did i take the fast route?
hahahahaha to prove myself.

Fuck I CAN DO IT! I CAN DO IT!

Me, the girl who loveeesss math.
Me, the girl who'd paste formulae along with "i can do this!" & "focus lyz!" around my room.
Me, the girl who was wheezing stuggling to breathe through my PSLE papers refusing hospital treatment till after i was done. (ya i know man. wtf right?!)

It's WAAARRR.

Spread love like violence

2009-03-12T11:21:00.013+08:00

"Happiness is the longing for repetition"

♥ Milan Kundera

I photoshopped his pimple away. haha
i never knew i could do that with picasa.
Well, then technically it would be..
I picasa-ed his pimple away, no?

I should be studying right now.

I've been wishing on every fallen eyelash that..

Wish me luck!

Retail therapy

2009-03-11T00:39:00.003+08:00

Boyfriend bought 3 exact same plain tees in 3 diff colours,
plus a raglan top which doesn't fit JUST BECAUSE it was $11.

I bought a yellow top & a blue dress (not like i'd wear it, maybe once, but it looks so cutee!) online
oh, and a cute ass gray polo with multi-coloured stripes from an Alloy spree.
can't wait for that one! cheap and cute! hopefully it fits!
Have been contemplating getting the polo dress from old navy.
But it's not cheapcheap, and its kids size so.. must think hard before i decide. hah
I just received my navy raglan. The colour looked so much nicer on the website.
But i still like it. Exact same colour as my blue bag though. haha

Now, i want..

a CAMERA- nikon D90?
a new bag
jacket
new organizer
files!
wallet
HANDPHONE- i want a flip phone. i think. i dont know

Never forget my love

2009-03-10T23:15:00.002+08:00

omg i'm sucha loser.
I lost my debit card. AGAIN!! i know right! URGH
the first time i lost it, i panicked called my mother got yelled at, called posb to cancel it straightaway.
3days after i got a replacement card, i found it in my jacket.
Yes, 10 or 12 bucks gone just like that.

and it happens again!! This time i looked for it in my jacket, pants, bags, sister's bag, NOTHING.
how now brown cowww! so far, no money's been withdrawn from my account.
But should i take a risk?? I don't know if i'll find it 3 days from today, or not.
hhhoooo myyyy gooosssssshhhhh =( =( =(

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#$^!@#^#%#$#%
boyfriend just called.
MY CARD IS WITH HIM. hurhur
seeeee laaa. cause i passed him my card to help me pay for petrol while i ran to the toilet. and that was the last time i remember holding it. when i asked him to look for it, he's like "noooo. i passed it to you aldy! you go look in ur bag la! *tsk" HUR

let us rejoice! in carelessness & stupidity! :D

The way I am

2009-03-08T17:38:00.003+08:00

I'm so sleeeepyy
but i logged in anyway to post because.. you know, the whole excitement thing when you have smth new? smth old' new actually.

Mother woke me up at 9am, rushed me & sis out of the house, got to airport by 10.45 and father's flight arrival was almost an hour later. sis, queen of free things, encouraged mother to grab a bite at swensons. Ended up with a $40 breakfast, complete with topless five. Father only arrived at almost 12pm!

Apparently he made friends with this indo grandma and her daughter-in-law and offered to bring them around singapore. We drove them all the way to orchard hotel, which turned out to be the wrong one! It was actually, park hotel. They must've been damn disappointed uh. AFTER that, parents treated them to ayam penyet at lucky plaza.. on a sunday. homygoodness! the place! I felt like i was in philipines! It's scary.. watching them flirting with old men & indian nationals. And they actually all look the same! same size, same hair, same clothes i couldnt differentiate any of them!

Home now. Should get to my books, & clean my room. =( My room's always messed up during exam periods. I'm a messy study. Then i get frustrated cause i can't find my notes in the heap of papers. hah
I bought two big containers for storage just now. Wonder how long that'll last me.

Twist and shout

2009-03-08T02:37:00.004+08:00

So I've rekindled my love for blogspot, after what seems like years on livejournal.
I miss blogger's simplicity. Plus, you have to admit, i'm kinda really damn good with layouts. haha!
Kinda lost my old tag-board and links though. but heck, i like it still.

Been re-reading my old entries. You can really tell i've changed. I swear i was more fun back then. Effects of growing up? Balls. Or maybe it's cause I care too much now for how people might perceive me from what i write? Back then, i was what i was, and i didnt care cause people that mattered knew who i was and they didnt care how i seemed. But now?

Anyhoos! I've got maths and B&F paper on thurs and friday. AND i've not started revisions. I was out yest for a movie, and out today to play games. games games games!! i miss contra, tmnt, dragonball, laserball, pacman! i miss my nintendo partner. we were so intune to each other we didnt have to say anything to know what the other person's gonna do. we knew which guns we liked and we stuck to them cause they complemented each other so well. i miss that certainty. haha does this make sense?

Gotta wake up early to fetch father tomorrow.
mm i miss stable carefree days, & damn i could get used to having my own car! :D

Straight from the heart

2007-08-16T12:13:00.000+08:00

If I could,
I would disappear
from every inch of your life
from everyone connected to you
from everything that reminds you of me

If I could,
I would erase
everything I've ever done,
to & for you
every word I've ever said,
to & about you
every memory you have of me

I'll make sure I leave no trace
no evidence of my existence

At least not to you

Just for you.

& life goes on..

And as i wonder.

2007-05-21T01:04:00.000+08:00

i dont know you

so i dont know how u'd think or feel

so i dont have to do anything

about anything

if anything happens

And it is sad.

2007-03-20T16:16:00.000+08:00

Let down.

The feeling of disappointment is such hollowness your heart drops a million feet below sea level you run out of breath and let your head drop towards the ground you desperately wish you could dig up and hide in where noone in the world can touch you it feels like someone just punched you in the gut and you're left lying there, left behind, let down, alone and disappointed you try to explain it to someone but rarely do you ever find the words to describe exactly just how you feel and that person will never understand. You try, and you try to make him understand just how painful it is, but you'll never succeed, not ever.

And all you can do is,
give up.

Some things are better left unsaid.

2007-02-25T03:32:00.000+08:00

you know,

that eeerriieee feeling you get sometimes

when it's dark,

and late at night,

and you're the only one still awake,

watching television in the living room,

and you know

that damn eeerrrriieeee feeling you get

that someone's beside you

breathing into your ear

and your neck hair stands?

yeah?

well ..

just a few minutes ago,

i felt that DAMN EEERRIIIEEEE FEEELING.

so i bit my lip,

and courageously turned,

and HOLY CRAP LAH !

that damn eeeerriieee feeling you know you get sometimes?

IT'S FUCKING ACCURATE !

directly beside my face

was

THIS

so let me tell you this,

DON'T YOU EVER DOUBT THAT DAMN EERRRIIIEEEE FEEELING !

Trying to get back to yesterday.

2007-02-19T15:16:00.000+08:00

Britney Spears.

i think it's fucking sad,
watching the rich and famous fall.

i am freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee,
from school.

i am still stuuuuuuuuucck,
with ____ .

you should watch these fucking funnies,

japs get spanked
japs starknaked

then you can go shoot yourself in the head.

As perfect as you.

2007-02-05T21:30:00.000+08:00

and now,

=,( i'm more determined than ever. =,(

Destroying puppet strings.

2007-02-02T22:30:00.001+08:00

booyakasha!

two weeks till end of attachement
and i'm roti prata flat broke BAHUMBUG.
mm i'm gonna miss the crazyness at work maaaaan.

from the nehneh grabbing,
to the ass pinching,
to the lesbian kissing,
to the morning/afterlunch shitting,
to the toilet hiding,
to the porn surfing,
to the hide & seek with asst boss,
to the rubberband war with the boss.

it's been quite a bumpy transition,
from never-in-school to cannot-skip-work(-much) but it's been fun.

and now, let me summarize what i need to do in order to graduate.

E-logs

- week 13
- week 14
- week 15
- week 16

Report

- get pictures
- summarize tests
- and everything else

Presentation

- write notes
- find more pictures
- and pretty much everything else too

sh;eirh;ekrhj;droigz'[setojae;4ruah;wrihuzdrohirkhbcx,vmxn;dtkhi
and i love my kingkongarse long timeee!

The more i see, the less i know.

2007-01-09T19:23:00.000+08:00

so i'm in the library and using wireless!
okay lyz jakun.
so shoot me.

i end attachment in 5weeks time, and i suppose it's time to bookmark it here.
and i need to start on my report and slides and two of my way overdue-d elogs.
and also to hug people i havent had time to meet.
then i have to apply for jobs, earn money, rent a house with my bloodgirl with or without the boys, get the freakin license, get a car, get married and have lotsa lotsa children.
hohoho

for those who don't know,
there's gonna be dinner & dance for the whole third year students,
but you gotta pay 65buckies for a ticket.
if you're rich and need a date,
feel free to sponser me :))

i'm strange and you're strange
don't want you to change
no way.

Let's try this one more time, with feeling.

2006-12-30T20:19:00.000+08:00

hey ho whoever's there.

home has been a fucking piece of stupid worthless shit. and i am angry, and i am sad. mostly fucking pissed. with the lady, with the man, with what he's doing, and what she's doing, and most of all, with what i feel. and i feel like screaming, partly to make someone see just how fucking ridiculous this whole thing is and partly because things will never be the same. we cant go back, and you refuse to face reality and go forward. and so we're stuck. i kick myself in the gut because i have so fucking much to say to you. but just like him, i'm much too tired to entertain you and your 46yearold tantrums. and i feel empty because you hate me for how i am yet you dont even know who i am. but we are blood and i wish you happiness. i just hopepraywish you realise what you have done.

i've been away from home for the past week, and life's been .. well, pretty much peacefully sweet.

i'm turning 20 and i'm still all angsty and hateful.
this is so not what i envisioned for myself.

Goodfuckingbye 2006.

When it comes to the truth.

2006-12-20T22:48:00.000+08:00

you know what my problem is?

i care too much for things i shouldn't or cant do anything about
and i can't be bothered with things that i should care about
apathy, fucking annoying.

i want to care,
but i just really dont care.

i care that i dont care.
hurr

compared to others, i feel so fucking dead .

emo days ahead.
the period's coming.

i need a massage.

and some tlc please.

anybody?

And if you get to heaven.

2006-12-19T19:45:00.000+08:00

i feel like the weather.

WET.

hohohohehehehahaha :))

ok it just popped into my mind one sunday afternoon,

and i thought it was hilarious

and ok maybe i should stop being so crude uh.

I don't even like it.

2006-12-12T22:53:00.000+08:00

and as usual,
i'm procrastinating.

i even
changed my f- template!

and

my e-log
which was due

last sunday
is still only

1 sentence complete.

and i am

bored

and sick

of working.

somebody take me away!

there's nothing else we can really do.

2006-12-10T14:10:00.000+08:00

so there we were in the lift
and tada! the lrt's already there
we braced ourselves for the run to squeeze our asses through the door before it closes
the minute the lift door opened, we ran (or rather jogged)
i was blocked by a fat lady carrying shopping bags
he was right beside me
and i thought to myself

"OMG WE CAN MAKE IT! I WONT GET HOME LATE AFTER ALL!"

but oh my fooking goshness!
at the very last minute,
the bloody fat lady who runs funny stopped,
right in front of the bloody door!
and i just stood there stunned,
i looked at her ass,
then looked at his questioning expression to my left,
and we stood (and doubled over and rolled on the ground) laughing till our stomachs hurt
as we watched the precious train door close on us,
and the clock strikes CURFEW.

"we could've made it",
he said when he caught his breath.

"why the hell did you kiss her ass?!!"

BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAHAHAHA

she laughed with us, at first.
she walked away when she realised we were laughing at her.

so eeeeviiiil. :)

A letter to elise.

2006-12-02T12:41:00.000+08:00

i was just wondering,

do you,

each time you turn on your computer,

and log on to the internet,

feel like shitting?

cause i do.

and so do some of my friends.

it's some coool shit i tell you!

A giving up of hope.

2006-11-19T17:31:00.000+08:00

You're all I see these days
but you're so far away
this dream is never ending
you're falling through my broken mind

Inside my heart
I'm aching,
spent time on others faking
you've stolen my heart
and trapped my mind

I see there is no difference
we're still alone

I'm lost in thoughts

there is no need in crying
there is no need in dying

it makes no difference
we're still alone

i need f- happy pills,
lotsa f- hushhush,
broken glass and happy songs,
surround myself with crazy ppl,
act happy and smile,

and maybe,

just maybe,

i wont f- need you.

And angels fall.

2006-11-13T22:06:00.001+08:00

And your mother loves your father
Cause she's got nowhere to go
And she wonders where these dreams go
Cause the world got in her way
What's the point in ever trying
Nothing's changing anyway

And it's gone, going, gone.

2006-11-08T23:55:00.000+08:00

After almost 3 days (6 hrs each day)
of sitting in front of the viscosity machine
dripping samples into the tubes
breathing in the strong weird smells coming from the machine,
one of the permanent staff came up to me and tells me,

"eh alyz, dont stay too close to the machine for too long.
Toluene (one of the solvents used for viscosity @ 100 degree celcius which stinks real bad) causes cancer."

HUR HUR :/

seeee, so dangerous my job and what the fuck they pay me??

PEANUTS.

This never meant nothing to you.

2006-11-06T21:30:00.000+08:00

i dont like alkjuhasl;etkug;aekjnhfhsth
i dont like people who alkruha;ektuga;etuh
i dont like when he alrgkjae;rukha;erghaerhaerh
i dont like when she alruha;eruighae;krha;erhae;rhu
i dont like when my parents aletuha;eriutaerkhjanedtrh
i dont like my friends to be akjrh;aekrh;aeihadfhkaebdhse

cause i'd get so angry,
i want to kick some major kingkong ass.

i have so much to say.
but i dont know if there's anyone who'd listen.
i dont know if i even feel like saying anything.
you know the feeling?

i'm so bloody sick sad & tired.
and i wants manymany hug-mwah,
how? :(

thank heavens for seasons icelemontea,
for keeping me alive kicking crapping & smiling my day through.

Time alone will find the way.

2006-10-29T13:30:00.000+08:00

i are in a good mood :))

slept since 4pm yesterday all the way till 11am this morning.
woke up awhile cause hungry and the house was noisy cause my relatives came over, but i sms sms then accidentally fell asleep again.

work's been alright.
warming up to the people there. see i'm really shy and quiet unless i'm used to you. how long i take to warm up to you depends on your level and frequency of crappyness. the more crappy, the more i feel at ease, then i'll start yapping non-stop about nothing at all.
ta daaaa!

OH OH i have to say something.

the boys, or rather, MEN at work are like ...... When we get off or get on the bus, they will quickly rush in front of you so that they can sit first or get off the bus first. what happened to ladies first??!! it's really annoying. and i'm proud to say that our nyp boys are gentlemen. uhm well, okay at least they give way to us girls.

end of post!

selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin everyoneee!
♥ mwah mwah

And in the night we'll wish this never ends.

2006-10-22T12:48:00.000+08:00

No more school, and CPTC is over.

i'm attached to Intertek Testing Services.

and i do lab testing for lubricating oil. yessss, lubrications.

oh, you know, i'm so polluted.

i inhale petroleum and fuel oil and engine oil and hydaulics and acids and bases and the haze outside everyday.

oh well.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA in 2 days time.

i dont feel the festive mood.

i'm just glad i'll be able to snack and eat lunch.

night shift, so can eat our hearts out.

Group 3 & 4, i'd say the most happening.

HABES AH! i miss all of them :(

The beloved CPTC.

ps: all pictures taken from shireen :)

The sound of disappointment.

2006-09-30T22:07:00.003+08:00

"Starhub is unable to get a response

from our customer's mobile phone.

Please try again later."

A sight for sore eyes.

2006-09-23T00:27:00.000+08:00

sore eyes alert!
two whole days my eyelids bulged out.
and there i was, in jurong island.
first day was so bad i skipped practical.
apart from the occasional jokes about my small swollen eye,
everyone was relatively nice.

BLAH it's a currrseee i tell you.

but it's getting better and tomorrow's saturday, then the next day, PUASA LE.

oh oh you know in cptc,
there's two cans of coke beside a pot of flowers in a toilet on level 2.
it's not opened, but the cans are almost empty.
and in almost every toilet, there's at least one cubicle that's locked.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

We'll only take eternity.

2006-09-18T23:30:00.000+08:00

dear procrastination,

tuesday,
hand in tutorials - BAH

wednesday,
exam results - DIE

thursday,
midterm paper - DOUBLE DIE!

friday,
baa baa black sheep - TGIF!

sometimesthehardestthingandtherightthingarethesame

Broken hearts to broken homes.

2006-09-14T23:53:00.000+08:00

Sometimes,
you'll be gone
and I'll be left behind.

and it hurts to say
but i want you to stay,
sometimes.

And we will survive.

2006-09-08T23:27:00.000+08:00

i climbed the distillation column today.

me, the girl who's afraid of looking anywhere else but straight when crossing the overhead bridge, climbed a swaying roughly about 10 storey column with nothing but a loose hard hat, a baggy jumpsuit, disgusting gloves, safety boots two sizes too big, and railings and bars on a windy friday evening.

and i survived without pissing in my shorts!

i was surprisingly quite calm and climbed relatively easy and fast up till the second last area thing.
that was when you could feel the swaying,
and even the boys were unhelpfully exclaiming at how high and unstable it seems.
but we made it and ate m&ms with our grandpa trainer.

the view was awesooommmeeee lah.
like manymany gold-lighted decorated columns and flares burning all over jurong island.
too bad we're not allowed to bring camera.

i would've enjoyed the view if i wasn't so freaked out of falling off in between the railings each time the column swayed or when someone pushed me.

but FUN LAH!!

thank God for friends!

Between the lines of fear and blame.

2006-09-04T22:53:00.000+08:00

yaaaaaaaaaaaaayaaaaaaaay :))))
i'm in the same group as sheeeeeeeeeen!!

and after months and yonkeedoodledoos of no icelemontea,
i drank just one can and i went all hyper already.
all sorts of rubbish came tumbling out.
and i only realised it when we went to buy coke.
i can go on and on and lose whatever grasp of logic and reason i have when i'm hyper.
but fun lah, although i think my ass sore already.
should go visit there one day.

and OH,
if you're ever bored, try this.
name 2 or 3 fruits starting from A to Z.
i really thought it'd be easy.
but funny lah all the imaginary fruit names you'll come up with.

hmmm..
i have a feeling i'm gonna kickass in pingpong by the end of cptc. :))

ohhhhh happy days!

Maybe we'll find better days.

2006-08-30T15:50:00.000+08:00

i absolutely cannot help it.

my layout is so candycoatedlycute!
painstakingly done up by yours truly. :)

my aunt's leaving tomorrow.
the friend's leaving next week.
many left to study overseas already.
everyone seems to be leaving. :(
wonder if i can somehow find the resources to leave too.
wouldn't that be nice?

training starts next week,
and i have to be at JURONG by 8.15 blistering am.

i'm very hungry,

and nico just slipped off the window ledge into my mum's mini garden outside the window!!

.. BAAHAHAHAHAHA

i think he pissed into my mum's plant lah!

omg so cute!

ok i'm gonna go cuddle with my littledumbcat now. HAHA

Darling, your head's not right.

2006-08-24T21:28:00.000+08:00

paper over baybeh! :))))

WAAHOOOOOOOOOO! !

in the words of nurul maideen,
i'm a happy goober!

bottom two,
joakim OR nurul,
i truly really THOUGHT it was a no brainer.
But apparently, i was stopshortdeadwrong.

bloody amusing.

there must really be alot of deaf rich little kids uh.

Dear God, please make them stop fighting. =,(

Cause the world got in her way.

2006-08-20T16:54:00.000+08:00

WAAAAAAARRGGH

i need to complain.

i'm dying! my brain cells are so used up. i eat sleep and shit my books and notes man. you know what i dream about when i go to sleep? i dream of definitions! it's like a slideshow. and there's a few words, and alot of points. then my brain like scans through the page, then when my brain thinks i'm done, i go to the next slide/page. fuck lah. even when i'm asleep. thing is, i wouldn't mind that AT ALL if i ACTUALLY REMEMBER WHAT I DREAM ABOUT. bah! who is the smart ass who put 4 majorly-huge-content-filled papers back to back?! huh huh huh!! do they really expect us to fill our cute little heads with an insane amount of processes and diagrams for papers WHICH we dont have time to relax and re-energize for before the next paper?! GRRRR.

okay, i'm done.

Like a joke that noone gets.

2006-08-19T20:00:00.000+08:00

It is official.

Singapore Idol is just a dumb show where a contestant does a spice girls song, and deaf rich little kids vote for the koreanboy, who can't sing to save his life, and the emoboy, who sings "shake it once that's fine, shake it twice that's okay, shake it three times, you're playing with yourself" for an IDOL show on national television.

enough said.

it's one more day to four consecutive days of hell on earth,
and my room's looking worse than a ship capsized.

The next few days will prolly be my last few days in school.
and the next few papers are possibly the last few papers i'd have to mug for.

i'm having a mental block
i've been very disorganized in my revision,
and i'm worried sick
but it's too late
so i'll just have to deal with it

FOCUS LYZ FOCUS!

i'm hungry.

.... and away she goes!

The angel above me.

2006-08-01T11:18:00.000+08:00

bleeeeeaaaaaaaaahhhhh :(

falling sick sucks stupid super shit silly sushi.
(now say that 5 times faster. haha)

i've got a fever, sore throat, neck ache, headache,
and two mosquito bites on my left ass,
and i have to study cause tomorrow is my GMP paper.
tell me how now brown cow?
tell me tell me tell me.

drank a whole can of redbull last night,
but i fell asleep instead.
and it seemed to increase my temperature.
what nonsense.

i'm an attention seeker
(no, really.)
and right now,
i'm sick with noone to manja with. :((

i can't be spoilt and pampered if there wasn't actually anyone here to spoil and pamper me right?

I am a question to the world.

2006-07-26T16:09:00.000+08:00

hello hello hello hello!

i miss my oh-so-familiar layout.
i think i might change back to blogger.
aye wth lah i'll alternate. heh
so catch me if you can! :)

and hey, to uh everyone basically.
BE CAREFUL ON YOUR BIKES (especially) & CARS OKAY?
my cousin passed away last night from a bike accident.
lost control of his bike, i think.
reminds you of how fragile life is.

i'm proud to say that i've been a very good girl the past weeks.
been dragging my ass to 8am classes!
(though i'd miss the 1st and/or 2nd hour, but hey, EFFORT right?)
and roughing out the loooooooong breaks in between classes.
and coming home early from school.

next week one paper, the week after that another paper,
and two weeks after that, FOUR papers in a row,
and then one week break, and then CPTC, here i come!

okay nothing interesting.

And it's always raining.

2006-04-29T00:51:00.000+08:00

i was walking about just now.
and i looked down on the floor.
guess what i saw?

ST. MARG'S SEC TIE!

all dirty and stepped on.
it prolly fell off some girl's unform.
NOSTALGIC laaaah.
i remember having to keep sewing my tie again and again after my mum washed my uniform in the washing machine.
and oooooh, of course.
the very airy polka dot uniform with the skirt flying up everytime wind blows.
and noone telling us that when we bend,
you can see what's under our skirt.
which thankfully to the smss tradition,
is (usually) our shorts.
hahaha

I LIKE!
and i miss.
really.

Will i still be your hero?

2006-04-27T21:21:00.000+08:00

and hello.
no mood to blog recently.
everything's been peacefully fun.
and it's wearing me out.

so today,
i woke up at 7,
tumpang my dad to school,
zombied about classes for 4hrs,
(i had ALBERTY for tutorial laaah! :/)
went home,
zonked out for 5 hours
and read the rest of the day away.

and i thought to myself, what a wonderful day.

boy was i wrong.

sigh =,(

In the riddles told by older ones.

2006-04-18T22:27:00.000+08:00

i was sitting in the bus,
and i got bored.
so i started twisting my fingers in all sorts of ways.
i challenged my friend to pull his thumb down to his wrists.
he couldn't do it.
then it was my turn to try.
i couldn't do it either.
and out of nowhere,
this managerlooking guy fully clothed in formal wear
walked up between us in front of the whole bus
and pulled his thumb down to his wrists
smirked,
and got off the bus.

BAHAHA

so bloody cartoon i tell you.

cheers to weirdpeople and happydays! :)

Between past and present tense.

2006-04-17T20:32:00.000+08:00

on saturday,
rachel introduced me to heaven.
and heaven is *smacks lips*

A B S O L U T E L Y DELICIOUS.

now tell me,
how can you not love mychillipadi?

The collapse of civilization.

2006-03-25T00:37:00.000+08:00

Minor Signs (in no order)

The coming of the Last Prophet, Muhammad ibn Abd-Allah (SAW).
The slave will become the master.
Shepherds will compete in the construction of tall buildings.
Knowledge of Islam will be taken away while ignorance will increase. Old scholars will die and fewer and fewer new scholars will replace them. The leaders of the Muslims will be chosen from ignorant people, and they will rule according to their whims.
Drinking and fornication will increase heavily.
The population of men will decrease, and women increase till fifty women shall be for every man.
Thirty people will claim to be prophets, followed by Al-Dajjal.
There will be such an abundance of wealth that people will not be able to find recipients for zakat.
Killing will increase.
Time will be shortened so that a year will be like a month, a month like a day, a day like an hour.
Two great countries will fight and kill each other, both claiming the same thing.
Earthquakes will increase in number.
A person will pass by the grave, and wish to trade places out of despair.

Major Signs (in rough chronological order)

Al-Dajjal will come, claiming to be God holding Heaven and Hell. His purpose is to deceive, and unbelievers will follow him. He is short, red-faced, blind in the right eye, and has hair which sticks up. He will go around the world, but will be unable to enter Madinah or Makkah.
Al-Mahdi will come at the time of Al-Dajjal. He will call to the true Islam, and will be a military leader. His name will be exactly like that of the Prophet: Muhammad ibn Abd-Allah, and his father's name will match the Prophet's father's name also. He will be descended from Fatima, the daughter of the Prophet.
Isa (Jesus) will come at the time of Al-Dajjal and al-Mahdi as well. He will descend at the time of Fajr prayer on a masjid in Damascus, the capital of Syria. He is of medium height, red-faced, and his hair is as if he just took a shower. He will call people back to Islam, but he will also be a military leader. The People of the Book will revert to Islam, and wealth will be super-abundant. Isa will break the cross, kill the swine, and personally slay Al-Dajjal. He will stay on Earth for a long time thereafter, and then die.
An animal will come and call people back to Islam. (A partial description of this animal is that it is very hairy, so much so that one will not be able to tell its front from its rear (Arabic: 'Dab-ba'). Reference to this animal is mentioned in the Qur'an.)
Gog and Magog (two hidden tribes of people) will break free of the dam that holds them back, and ravage the earth. They will drink all the water, and kill people until Allah sends against them a worm which will wipe them out.
Three places in the world will sink and be swallowed up by the earth. One in the west, one in the east, and one in the Saudi Arabian peninsula.
Fire will come from the area of Aden in Yemen, and sweep northwards.
The sun will rise from the west.
Smoke will appear all over the earth which will cause believers to catch something similar to a slight cold, whereas the unbelievers will be hit harder by it. Finally, a cold wind will come and kill all believers, leaving only unbelievers on the earth who will then witness the last hour. The angel Israfil will blow a trumpet, and the resurrection of all human beings will begin.

taken from here.

You lay here with me.

2006-03-18T17:52:00.000+08:00

:) :) :) :) :)

he's moved from just fucking cute,

to..

fucking orgasmic.

Everytime i go to sleep at night.

2006-03-17T23:45:00.000+08:00

the view from my living room window.

that's the moon,

and below it is sengkang,

and between sengkang and my house,

is a jungle.

my dirty little secret.

2006-02-25T21:50:00.000+08:00

come on and kiss me

2006-02-13T22:02:00.000+08:00

hi

my name is lyz
i might be lesbian
i love to munch on ice
and..

i'm high! i'm high! i'm high! i'm high! i'm high!
i'm high! i'm high! i'm high! i'm high! i'm high!
i'm high! i'm high! i'm high! i'm high! i'm high!
i'm high! i'm high! i'm high! i'm high! i'm high!

:)))))))))))))))))

oh no
it go
it gone
byebye
do i
i think
i sink
and i die!

if you want to destroy my sweater
pull this string as i walk away
watch me unravel
i'll soon be naked
lying on the floor
i come undone.

sweater song - weezer

weeeeee.
i miss my laughing sessions for no reason.
i'm back! i'm back! i'm back! :)
and everybody go CHIAK.

i'm turning japanese.

2006-02-05T14:26:00.000+08:00

for the bored:
one , two , three , four

mm what is it with malay boys and fighting ah?
so bloody sickening.

he slashed the guy's hand with a parang over a stupid soccer match.
and the indian guy doesnt even remember them laah.
just because the indian guy pushed him or smth.
their ego so bloody huge that they cant even let it go.
and they're playing soccer man.
i mean, getting pushed during a soccer game is like a sure thing whaat.

for example,
the nyp scl soccer game.
boys, or even GIRLS,
*ahem* SOME PEOPLE still push them down laah.
right khai? :D

and omg they're only 18 and 19 and they have PREGNANT wives.

SHEEEESH.

what's happening to the malay community in the world today?

where IS the love?
heh apparently in their wives' womb uh. :/

i think they need to hang out with cooler people lah.
*wink* hohoho

p/s: don't slash my hand. :)

like a someone broken.

2006-01-29T13:29:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAYS to

Nur Shireen and Khairul Anuar.

click for more pictures.

satu dah 19cents,
lagi satu dah 20cents.

KECOH BEB.. :)

anyways,
i would like to watch Jet Li and Jacky Chan in a kung fu movie together.
that would be very interesting don't you think?

oh yah.
can someone help me kill chunky lee chong?

absentminded thoughts.

2006-01-11T15:00:00.000+08:00

ecomm is done!
studied this morning in the bus.
reached school, met sheen.
we were the only two who were reding our notes lah.
they made us feel quite stupid for studying. :/

one done, three more to go.
i'm still in lala land, believe it or not.
everyone else seems to know something.
i seem to know nothing.
and i'm STILL in lala land.
i'm losing it man.
I'M LOSING MY MOJO!
bugger.

maths, reactor and heat mass.
the two suckiest paper in one day.
thank god PIC's another day.

oh kill me already.

stand tall, and smile pretty.

2006-01-08T21:37:00.000+08:00

ARRGGGGH.

someone kick me.
make me study.
like REALLY study.
i HAVE to.
i NEED to.
i MUST i MUST i MUST!
i've been doing tutorials (some),
but when i cant do two or more questions,
I GIVE UP LAH.
shit LAH.
so now, i STILL dont know anything.
and it's worrying me to death.
but i'm still here on the com/watching tv.
HUR.

KICK ME!

on another note,
happy belated merry new year. :)

edit;
OMG OMG OMG
i killed the bloody mosquito that keeps sucking my blood everytime i'm on the com!
my very first succesful mosquito kill lah! :D
i may be scratching and itching annoyingly like hell all over,
but i'm happily excited really!

i wont be home for christmas.

2005-12-22T23:05:00.000+08:00

my dumb cat-who-didnt-know-how-to-bite-on-fish sliced my finger.
and it feels stingyish still.
thank goodness it's on my left hand.
it looks kinda cool though.
maybe i'll ask him to scratch a Y and a Z on my next two fingers.

happy holidays everyone.

you're dead on arrival.

2005-12-21T18:52:00.000+08:00

shoot me.
shoot me.
shoooooooot me!!

it's still kicking me in the ass.
URGHH.
fucked up.

test/examination tip;

NEVER EVER EVER drink anything chocolatey like milo or cold cocoa drink before your paper.
else you'll end up with a tummyache and waste your super insanely terribly annoyingly precious time, which you could've used to finish the bloody paper and figure the questions out, shitting all your crap out.

URRRRRRRGH.

i am missing.

2005-12-09T21:36:00.000+08:00

and all i need to know,
is that i'm something you'll be missing.
maybe i should hate you for this,
never really did ever quite get that far.

cause i'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions,
this'll be last chance you get to drop my name.

if i'm just bad news, then you're a liar.

fuckshit. :)

fcuk-us.

2005-12-08T21:52:00.000+08:00

Faris;
nickname: MAT.
status: the babyy of FAKAS, single and available, but very choosy.
image: badboy.
role: organizer.
metamorphosis: mat turn soccercutie turn roxygayboy turn punkwannabe turn normalmat.

Adam;
nickname: dumb.
status: single but not available.
image: joker.
role: entertainer.
metamorphosis: is, has been and will always be the disturber of peace.

Khairul;
nickname: abang khai or bang khai.
status: single and available, prefers BIG girls.
image: GAY.
role: source of entertainment.
metamorphosis: ever so slow.

Alyzia;
i'll just skip me. :)

Shireen;
nickname: sheeen.
status: it's complicated. :D
image: sweetie pie.
role: secretary.
metamorphosis: minah m'sia turn climbing poly chick turn lazy poly chick.

----------

coming soon,
the honorary members of FAKAS.

my five year infatuation.

2005-12-03T20:55:00.000+08:00

:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

if i ever (iwishohsodespratelyuponastar) meet him,
i'm gonna jump on him and lick him all over.
heh k.
maybe not.

now, this guy..
is so totally not cute. at all.
but but!
i love the way he says 'pour' or 'floor' or 'door'.
(you get the feel right?)
he sounds soooo verrry HOTT.

hohoho

bleah. :(
shoot me in the head.
stab me in the heart.

i'm looking like a fool again.

2005-12-01T22:01:00.000+08:00

shireen has a shoe full of soup.
khai has a wiicked purple aura.
faris has sexy jamaican lips.
adam looks fifteen years younger now.

angela says "cubit punat aku".
carol says "KACAK KONEK!".
weiting is FIERCE maaaaan.
wee leong tata wu laah.

and me,
i still dont get black magic.
and it's been bugging me since class.

soon we'll all be gone.

2005-11-27T19:48:00.000+08:00

hellohello.
i wanna go jumpjump around my room to my old cds.
join me okokokokokokokok?

shakeburnflyaway.
hehe

nothing much.
just a few pictures for you. :)
more coming soon.
if i'm not lazy okay?

penutup-penutup syawal;

couple of the day (with an angry brother);

POMZ + atiqah;

the not-at-all cousins;

so i sat in my room for 27 days.

2005-11-18T21:42:00.000+08:00

i dont know why i bother posting those kinda entries lah.
i delete them the next day.
HUR.

i was watching the rebel billionare show.
and how terrible it must be to have to lead the ladys huh.
and how lucky the lady must be to work with the guys.
girls are full of issues lah.
and boys are plain simple.
wanna know my theory?
if you're surrounded by boys most of the time,
you'll somehow view life simplisticly.
HAHA ya riight.
actually no. maybe yes.
k i'm not sure.
theory yet to be proven.

okay i have plenty more to say..
but i wont type it out here.
if you're bored and wanna hear what i wanna say,
come look for me.
that's if i havent already forgotten what i wanted to say.

okay thank you.

Cause it's time that will tell this tale.

2005-11-12T17:12:00.000+08:00

Today,
like every other day,
i wake up empty and frightened.
and it's just not right.

------- ★

booyakasha.

it's back to school.
fridays are free.
wednesdays are lame.

must be attentive.
must be attentive.

must not slip.
must not slip.

must be consistent.
must be consistent.

=/ riiight..

i want to be a marvel comic hero(ine).
please?

the view from heaven.

2005-11-04T14:40:00.000+08:00

lyz ingin ucapkan..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

AIDILFITRI

kepada semua umat Islam.

lyz ingin menyusun sepuluh jari,
memohon maaf atas segala salah silap lyz.
maafkan lyz ye?

lyz nak kena makan manyak-manyak lah. =/

MWAAAAAAAAAH.

you are but a fleeting illness.

2005-10-30T21:43:00.000+08:00

hello.

4 days to raya.
8 days to school.

i'm bored.
and i'm sick of thinking.
count your stars.
body mind soul.
it's aaaalll in da miiiinddd.
ooooooooooooooommmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..
ooooooooooooooommmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..
ooooooooooooooommmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..

new start.
new school habits.
new and improved.
it's aaaaaaaallll in the miiiindddd.
AYE, i cut my haiiiir already.
my loooooooooooooooooong sadako hair.
no, i'm not bald.
and i think my narsistic days are over man.
and i'm so hyper but i'm not.
get what i mean?
like hyper lah wanna jumpjump everywhere..
but like tired.
you know?

hmmmm.

hello faris.
kesian awak.
this year awak plan itinerary raya kita lagi okay?
kita set aside "tEaM pLanNerZ" ah. heh
kenape takde orang amik lesen kereta ah?
nanti susah lagi kita jalan sini jalan sana.
jauh jauh pulak tu.
aku rindu sheen ah.
si gila pomz-partner aku tu.

okay.
byebye.

friday night's a bit lonely.

2005-10-20T12:06:00.000+08:00

oooooooooh BABY.

i (re) fell in love with 1251 by the strokes today.

Kiss me now that I'm older
I won't try to control you
Friday night's a bit lonely
Take it slow but don't warn me

MWAAAAAAAH.

i'm a little high right now.
crazy lame ass chatters.
spring cleaning soooooooooooooon!
stuff tissues up my sharpcutenoooseeeee.
anyone still have those masks they gave out during sars?

lalalala

i want to go bouncebounce everywhere right now.
and i miss..
ahh the taste, the feel, the lovin'.
i miss my coke.
i bet my insides are rotting away.
maybe that's why i cant gain weight!
riiiiiiiiiiight.

okay, i have decided.
i'm going on a diet.
a diet to gain weight you goon.
so, my diet consist of..

french fries!
steak&lambchop!
manymanyrice
cut down on junk
~~breakfast~~ lunch, dinner and supper.
RUN.

k anything else?

my twisted little nightmare.

2005-10-16T16:40:00.000+08:00

this is amusing.

i was cutting vegetables in the kitchen while my aunt and ma were cooking.
and being the me i am, i just sat there quietly listening to them talk.
or at least TRIED to talk.
it was daaaaaaaarn amusing.
i suppose not listening to someone else runs in the family.

imagine this.
my aunt's there telling a story,
and when she stops to take a breath,
my ma will cut in to tell HER story.
when ma takes a breath,
MY AUNT will continue her story.
then in the middle of my aunt's story,
my ma would start yelling at my sis or ask her smth out of point or smth.
hahahahahaha
SO FUNNY laaaaaaah.
i wanted to tell them about how they "communicate",
but then i decided not to,
cause not admitting they're wrong also runs in the family.

haaaaaaaahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaha

whaaaaaaaaaat laah.

another futile wait.

2005-10-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

late nights and early mornings.
my neck hurts so baaaaaaad.
from all the slouching to rest my head on the table.
yes, results are out.
like three days ago lah.
i did pretty good for some, could've done better for others.
i improved, which is a good sign, of course. :)

i dont have much to say really.

i have alot of growing up to do.
and i still havent found my passion for anything.
to fill the emptiness in my life.
cheydeybah.

been reading a book that discusses sanity.

'adolescense is a crisis - a madness one could say - because an adolescent is trying to work out whether life is worth living.'

rather uhm extreme dont you think?

'their (the teenagers) parents' relationship is inside them, like DNA, continuing to work itself out; entwined with their own relationships with their parents and siblings.'

amazing how humans work aye?
we ARE our parents.
the good and the bad.
we are extensions of our parents.
who are extensions of their parents.
who are extensions of theeiirr parents.
product line extension? haha

moments of weakness.

2005-10-09T12:45:00.000+08:00

i let myself fall into a lie
i let my walls come down
i let myself smile and feel alive
i let my walls come down

no matter how i try i don't know why
i push so far away
you wrapped your hands tight around my heart
and squeezed it full of pain

the hate and the fear
the nightmares that wake me up in tears.

with this knife,
i'll cut out the part of me.

trouble sleeping.

2005-09-29T15:20:00.000+08:00

i feel like i'm still five
clinging onto familiarity
afraid to step out into reality
afriad to step out alone.
each time something goes wrong
i jerk backwards into yesterday
the frequent the jerks,
the more trapped i become.
only to try again after much coaxing and reassurance.
i am just a plain girl who thinks she's another.
i'll hold my head up and pretend
just like you, and everyone else
i am just another.
looking for a place to belong.
frightened by every loud noise
hiding in every corner of my childhood
finding comfort in every sorrow
in search of the perfect friend who never will leave my side.
i am trapped in fear.

and i have to learn to rise above.